I’ve recently become really interested in this whole personality typoe thing.  You know how you take those gay personality tests-well, i do-and always find some way to correlate them to yourself?  This is different.  I looked through the different profiles, and most of them I was like, ‘Wow. That is so not me. I’d never do that. I wouldn’t want that as a job.’

It’s pretty cool.  Really cool.  I told my friend-who just happens to be ‘madly in love with me’ (his words not mine) that he should take it.  I had already told him I was an ‘ENTP’ and after he took it, he said he was too.  I looked through the profiles again, and found one that fit him perfectly.  It’s weird.  In the profile, under relationships, it said is most likely to lie to impress someone. Haha.

 Anyway, I just thought I’d share that. It really interests me.

I think it’s time to give up.  No one can win at everything, right?  And it’s better to be realistic than a dreamer, right?  Honestly, I have no clue.  I’m just sick of this whole being alone deal.  There’s a melodramatic teen for you.

I know it’s my own fault.  It’s not like I don’t have options.  Hell, if I wanted to, I could call up a guy right now and ask if he’d be my boyfriend.  (Not that I would ever, ever do that.)  I could, but I won’t.  I don’t like the guys that like me.  I’m too picky, I guess.  I’m not trying to wait for the ‘perfect one’ or something like that; I just don’t want to settle. 

Maybe I should lower my standards.  I could start going out with dumb, immature boys.  I could go out with boys that take no initiative.  I could, but I won’t, because I wouldn’t be able to settle for that. 

I think there’s something wrong with me.  No ‘normal’ guys like me.  I get all of the creepers.  The stalkers, nose-pickers, and such, you know?  I don’t know how to change it though.  If I did, trust me, I wouldn’t be in this situation.  But I don’t know what’s wrong with me, and therefore I can’t find anyone.  Correction: I can find them, they just can’t find me.